Confession: I'm not even a little sad to see this summer go. August has been a rough, rough month for me. The heat has been overwhelming. Yesterday, Drew and I were going to the USC v. Texas A&M game because he's a Gamecock through and through. About 2 hours into being there, walking around to various tailgates before trying to score some tickets, I began to feel sick. Really sick. I couldn't breathe right, and suddenly felt that I might pass out. So we had to leave. And I almost passed out on the long walk back to the car.
It took some convincing to get Drew to take me home and not the hospital, but we came home to watch the game, and I felt like the worst fun sucking wife ever. He had been SO excited about taking me to my first football game, and about being at the first one of the season, and I ruined it. He keeps telling me it's ok and my health mattered much more than a game, but I still feel terrible about it. I'm just so much more sensitive to heat than most others, and sometimes it ruins all the fun.
Confession: I've had a million migraines this month (again, reasonably sure it's partially due to how hot it's been) and my healthy eating, cooking, and living habits have gone out the window in August. Ever since my 5k on the 2nd, I've just been unable to get enough energy to go run, and sometimes my head hurts too much to stand in the kitchen long enough to cook or make careful decisions about what to eat. So I've eaten kinda junky, not exercised, and essentially just been a bit unhealthy. I know if I were maintaining the healthy habits I would feel better, but I've felt too sick most of the time to do much of anything. Quite the catch 22 situation.
Confession: I've also sucked at spending time with the Lord all month. I've hardly read my Bible, haven't invested much time in it, and haven't been intentional with my time and prayers. Which has also contributed to the general malaise of the month for me. Faith got pushed to the back burner all month and I really need to re-focus myself.
Basically, my Friday confession is: I'm not so awesome. Thank God for grace. And coffee. Coffee has helped me through a lot of bad days this month.
Here's to September being a better month all around!
